Once, I heard that they setting up barricades and stuff around Louisville. I already knew what it was hitting for sadly. It's super frustrating to see what they were no actual charges. It just makes you numb to the entire process.
Once I saw that I honestly told myself I wouldn't be moved because I already knew what was coming. Here I am. Sad as hell, sitting here sulking. This sucks bro.
It doesn't matter what happens to us, sadly. Even when we people of color in that position. The family deserves justice --- $12M settlement is not going bring Breonna back nor is going to bring the change necessary to the criminal justice system.
That always pisses me off the most. They can pay a $12 million settlement out, but they don't dish out any meaningful charges to the killers? Make it make sense yo.
It will never make sense until there's a complete 360-degree change to the criminal justice system. Meanwhile, only one cop gets charged and bail is only $15K. That's chump change.
I'm trying to be optimistic in that there's still a federal investigation, but it's hard right now. Sending love to all of y'all, because that's the only thing that can drive us forward along with real action.
How are y'all maintaining your mental health right now? Since the news broke this morning, all I've done is stare blankly at my inbox. I can't get anything done and it's impossible to act like everything's okay in meetings with the rest of my colleagues. Shit is absolutely exhausting. I hope everyone is hanging in there and is taking care of themselves the best they can right now.
Honestly, my day was similar, Eva. I kind just sat and sulked for a few hours. Couldn't really get over it. Knew it was coming, but the moment it happened I kind of just shut down.
I'm trying to take my mind off of it by cooking a bit on the grill today. We'll see if it helps.
I barely am. It’s fucked that we’re going through a pandemic and the largest awakening to our broken system of my lifetime and we’re still expected to maintain productivity at work and maintain our mental health. Some days it feels impossible. I’m a white man and I know that I can’t be exhausted, but it’s hard to maintain some days. I often want to unplug from the news cycle for a day or a week or a month, but it feels irresponsible to do that. I’m trying to take mental health breaks - go hiking, go run, have a night to get drunk - but it never feels like quite enough of a break. I hope you’re holding up and that you have a circle of people close to you (or a therapist!) to talk to.
Been feeling the same, Eva. Even scrolling through social media and seeing people out enjoying life is making me miserable. It feels like there’s no bottom to the injustice sometimes.
It's just so awful and predictable, I don't think anyone would be surprised by this. Black people get innocently killed, justice isn't done, protests are had, the state brutalises said protesters with weapons banned by the Geneva convention for use in war, the cycle continues. I guess I don't really have anything specific to say but I literally cannot comprehend what it is like, not just because I'm in a different country but mainly cause I'm white. I think one of the most important things for white people to understand, which many for some reason don't, is that your experiences *literally* cannot be the same as black people's, and that when so many express so much anguish it's time to start listening to what they say, regardless of your own experiences of the police, because I've never been stopped by an officer and one of my black friends has been stopped 10 times, including on the way to class, walking the same streets and riding the same buses in the same areas that I do. That's obviously racism, but yet it never seemingly gets talked about here in the UK. I think many people feel like it's something that happens elsewhere, laude it over as some kind of British superiority, when it couldn't be further from the truth. I think that's one positive I like to focus on to distract from the awfulness, the mobilisation around the world and the awakening in countries like Britain and France where racism by the state is rife, but never talked about and rarely acknowledged. I can't remember the exact stats but when I calculated it black people formed only 3% of our population but something like 15-20% of the people who died in police custody. Just makes me so angry.
The number isn't very large but, out of 23 people who died in police custody, 6 were black which is 23%. It looks even worse when you account for those who had force used against them at some point, of which there were 11, and of which 5 were black. Depressing stuff indeed.
Honestly it just hurts man. A black woman, who is a also a first responder sleeping in her own home, gets killed by the cops. And during the press conference where this should be addressed, her name isn’t uttered once—presumably because 12 million will be forked over eventually. And some folks have the audacity to wonder why us coloreds feel less than...
Caleb, bruh, I'm so sorry. It fucking sucks that we have to go through this time and time again. I mean, I'm 27. This was a thing when I was 16. It'll be a thing when you're 27. When your kids are 16, it'll probably still be a thing, too. So I want to tell you that everything we're doing and everything we're seeing matters. That it's not just for nothing. But you're not dumb. You can see what's happening. No one can explain this away. To put it bluntly, this country doesn't really care about us. And it's heartbreaking.
Once, I heard that they setting up barricades and stuff around Louisville. I already knew what it was hitting for sadly. It's super frustrating to see what they were no actual charges. It just makes you numb to the entire process.
Once I saw that I honestly told myself I wouldn't be moved because I already knew what was coming. Here I am. Sad as hell, sitting here sulking. This sucks bro.
It doesn't matter what happens to us, sadly. Even when we people of color in that position. The family deserves justice --- $12M settlement is not going bring Breonna back nor is going to bring the change necessary to the criminal justice system.
That always pisses me off the most. They can pay a $12 million settlement out, but they don't dish out any meaningful charges to the killers? Make it make sense yo.
It will never make sense until there's a complete 360-degree change to the criminal justice system. Meanwhile, only one cop gets charged and bail is only $15K. That's chump change.
I'm trying to be optimistic in that there's still a federal investigation, but it's hard right now. Sending love to all of y'all, because that's the only thing that can drive us forward along with real action.
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Thanks for keeping the faith Sumeet. You're the best.
How are y'all maintaining your mental health right now? Since the news broke this morning, all I've done is stare blankly at my inbox. I can't get anything done and it's impossible to act like everything's okay in meetings with the rest of my colleagues. Shit is absolutely exhausting. I hope everyone is hanging in there and is taking care of themselves the best they can right now.
Honestly, my day was similar, Eva. I kind just sat and sulked for a few hours. Couldn't really get over it. Knew it was coming, but the moment it happened I kind of just shut down.
I'm trying to take my mind off of it by cooking a bit on the grill today. We'll see if it helps.
I barely am. It’s fucked that we’re going through a pandemic and the largest awakening to our broken system of my lifetime and we’re still expected to maintain productivity at work and maintain our mental health. Some days it feels impossible. I’m a white man and I know that I can’t be exhausted, but it’s hard to maintain some days. I often want to unplug from the news cycle for a day or a week or a month, but it feels irresponsible to do that. I’m trying to take mental health breaks - go hiking, go run, have a night to get drunk - but it never feels like quite enough of a break. I hope you’re holding up and that you have a circle of people close to you (or a therapist!) to talk to.
Been feeling the same, Eva. Even scrolling through social media and seeing people out enjoying life is making me miserable. It feels like there’s no bottom to the injustice sometimes.
It's just so awful and predictable, I don't think anyone would be surprised by this. Black people get innocently killed, justice isn't done, protests are had, the state brutalises said protesters with weapons banned by the Geneva convention for use in war, the cycle continues. I guess I don't really have anything specific to say but I literally cannot comprehend what it is like, not just because I'm in a different country but mainly cause I'm white. I think one of the most important things for white people to understand, which many for some reason don't, is that your experiences *literally* cannot be the same as black people's, and that when so many express so much anguish it's time to start listening to what they say, regardless of your own experiences of the police, because I've never been stopped by an officer and one of my black friends has been stopped 10 times, including on the way to class, walking the same streets and riding the same buses in the same areas that I do. That's obviously racism, but yet it never seemingly gets talked about here in the UK. I think many people feel like it's something that happens elsewhere, laude it over as some kind of British superiority, when it couldn't be further from the truth. I think that's one positive I like to focus on to distract from the awfulness, the mobilisation around the world and the awakening in countries like Britain and France where racism by the state is rife, but never talked about and rarely acknowledged. I can't remember the exact stats but when I calculated it black people formed only 3% of our population but something like 15-20% of the people who died in police custody. Just makes me so angry.
15-20%? That's a lot, though very, very unsurprising. Depressing all the same.
Not at all shocking. Smh.
The number isn't very large but, out of 23 people who died in police custody, 6 were black which is 23%. It looks even worse when you account for those who had force used against them at some point, of which there were 11, and of which 5 were black. Depressing stuff indeed.
Honestly it just hurts man. A black woman, who is a also a first responder sleeping in her own home, gets killed by the cops. And during the press conference where this should be addressed, her name isn’t uttered once—presumably because 12 million will be forked over eventually. And some folks have the audacity to wonder why us coloreds feel less than...
Shit is ridiculous man. I feel so disposable yo. It's always the same shit, Rashad. I'm tired of it.
Caleb, bruh, I'm so sorry. It fucking sucks that we have to go through this time and time again. I mean, I'm 27. This was a thing when I was 16. It'll be a thing when you're 27. When your kids are 16, it'll probably still be a thing, too. So I want to tell you that everything we're doing and everything we're seeing matters. That it's not just for nothing. But you're not dumb. You can see what's happening. No one can explain this away. To put it bluntly, this country doesn't really care about us. And it's heartbreaking.
something that annoys me the most is that if a black person had done the same thing you know they'd be demonised to all hell